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[Mar. 24th, 2007|02:36 am] |
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Today i felt ambitious and cleaned out my truck....i found pictures of us from 2 years ago, definitely doesnt seem that long ago...sad... |
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| blow it out yer colon with some flame broiled goodness |
[Aug. 27th, 2006|01:01 am] |
someone asked me a question today, the asked me if i had the chance to tell one person something that ive been meaning to say for a long time but havent...what would it be?...i didnt answer. I wish things were different and we were friends, but i miss you so much.
i have to be up for work in 5 hours....why... |
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[May. 22nd, 2006|11:55 pm] |
| [ | m00d |
| |  turred | ] |
| [ | musizzle |
| | The dirty dozen brass band | ] |
So i wrote down everything ive wanted to say for the past 6 months now but i just decided to forget about it....mainly cause it got del-teted...oh well...prolly wouldnt have been posted anyway.
Well for a small update, not like much has really gone on. Move out day was fun, i moved myself out and managed to have enough room to help a friend take stuff home also
So that was fun driving home, got plenty of stares...cause im just that beautiful!!! omg fo realz.
Well during school not much really went on either besides the jazz band concert.
This is a pretty phat picture if i do say so myself
The just been hangin out till exams. I actually did awesome this semester and made the deans list which is my first time. Although it does appear i will be going to school for an extra semester or year now tho, oh well...atleast ill be there for when campbell gets a football team...yayayayayayay...ill be section leader in a marching band for once...haha.
Now that summers here its been nothin but non stop work pretty much. Im basically paying 600 a month for my truck which SUCKS SO BAD, this is definitely a summer of rape. So i dont even know how im gonna afford my books. But besides that hasnt been much time for anything else. I cleaned my truck up for like the second time since i got it..and its getting close to a year since i got it now...kinda odd. Ive managed to put 10,000 miles on it in 9 months....thats very bad. But besides that my one and only baby in my life is still running strong.
My friends leaving iraq in about 5-6 days i think and is coming home the day after my birthday. Speaking of that, has anyone seen the devil movie coming out on my birthday?! so convenient i thought...oh well...guess my old band teacher was right that i really am a beast...haha.
Well i cant remember much else to say so imma make like a tree and leaf now so...yea. |
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[Apr. 17th, 2006|08:11 am] |
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i bought a white hat....the world is coming to an end! |
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[Apr. 11th, 2006|10:45 pm] |
| [ | m00d |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | musizzle |
| | JAZZ MESS CAUSE I JUST GOT DONE PLAYING A CONCERT | ] |
Omg i so sucked tonight on my solo omgomgomgomgomg...oh well people thought it was good, although it was diiiirtay enough ill live...
One more concert to go...the jazz band one....its gonna be special! SYKE! haha i said syke...
Well besides that been busy with school, got another performance after the jazz band with a big band group...just sittin in for someone so thatll be cool i spose
Alrighty...i must be off so i can do absolutely nothing now...yay?! |
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[Apr. 9th, 2006|01:09 am] |
oh my god, my truck, looks like im gonna learn how to pull a fender off...i cried over an automobile... |
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| i seen it! |
[Apr. 3rd, 2006|10:44 pm] |
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i just saw a preview for cars on June 9th...omg i cant wait haha...yes...im so gonna take the day off of work for that one! |
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| Missing link....or sign |
[Apr. 1st, 2006|03:04 pm] |
| [ | m00d |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | musizzle |
| | David Gray-This years love | ] |
My exciting weekend...
i spose ill keep this for now, i got mad and decided to delete it for various reasons, but for now...it lives... |
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| I sell ice in the winter, I sell fire in hell I am a hustler baby, I'll sell water to a well |
[Mar. 24th, 2006|08:01 pm] |
| [ | m00d |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | musizzle |
| | The Dirty Dozen Brass Band | ] |
Im tired, tired of everything, tired of trying to keep friendships together, tired of trying to be happy all the time, tired of working, tired of it all.
Ive had many realizations in the past few weeks, talkin to friends and such, but i think its time to let things be...
I wrote this, took me one or two days...im not poetically gifted...but yea...
my heart just dropped out of my chest
when i heard her say she likes him best.
i can't describe what i'm feeling
but i know my heart must be bleeding.
from all the pain, and all the tears
will eventually disappear in a couple years.
I loved her, everything about her
but now she's just my friend and that's it.
I can feel the tears building up inside
soon they will burst out, i won't be able to hide.
i can't but help to think about all the time we shared
me looking into her eyes and seeing her beauty glare.
jealousy is not the answer here but i can't help
to say he is one lucky guy.
im done |
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[Feb. 27th, 2006|10:31 am] |
| [ | m00d |
| | cold | ] |
| [ | musizzle |
| | Let her Cry-Hootie and the blow fish | ] |
Soooooo i decided to do another update...yay fo you
Going to tennesse on thursday morning...yay!, getting back saturday for my spring break and since no one really has the same one as me, im just gonna work a lot i spose. Oh well. Besides that nothin special has really happened.
Saturday night was extremely special. I have a scrapes on my thigh from a huge ass boot....fun times...not.
My friend matts comin back to campbell in the fall so that means wessa gonna be roomin togheter....yay!
alrighty well its calss time i spose. bye bye |
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| Worries |
[Feb. 17th, 2006|02:59 pm] |
| [ | m00d |
| |  eh? | ] |
| [ | musizzle |
| | Ive Landed-Rehab | ] |
I dont know if anyone who reads this is a christian...or much less prays. Im not saying im a devout christian myself...im more of a closet christian in that i keep to myself. But the one time im going to ask for people to pray is for my friend in iraq. His family hasnt heard from him in a week now. Just keep him in your prayers...the fool already managed to cutt off his finger...haha.
besides that nothins really been happening thats of much interest. Saw some of my dads family that i ahvent seen in about 2 years on a saturday when i shoulda been at a pep band game...but thats was fun. My cousin apparently is wanting me to come out to a pig pickin so thatll be loads of fun haha. Trucks doing fine, still pretty so im happy. Been to fayetteville a lot out of sheer boredom with stephen but its all good.
Elliots comin down today and we are goin to Iguanas in lillington so thatll be interesting. Then if we are bored enough wessa goin to dunn.
yes
Well im out |
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| I know well what I am fleeing from but not what I am in search of. |
[Jan. 24th, 2006|02:59 am] |
| [ | m00d |
| | cold | ] |
| [ | musizzle |
| | Summertime-Dinah Washington | ] |
I think ive started a business on campus of fixing peoples cars, i dunno if this is good or bad...ha. Its mainly contained in the band part of the school for right now, but so far ive gotten 200 dollars for very easy fixes...go me.
Besides my side business, work sucks like usual...mainly cause i dont feel like having to go home everyweekend but i need the money...oh what i do for transportation, gay. Getting over going home everyweekend, its not that bad really...i dont have to deal with the idiots as much but thats ok. I got my training manual for shift supervisor yet i have not looked at any of it yet...thats bad...haha. Ive closed bymyself a few times already so its not like i dont know how to any of it to begin with so oh well
Schools goin alright so far, i think imma do fairly well in most of my classes which is very much needed...yes. Im in jazz band again and i think itll go fairly well this semester. Last year was kinda bad cause there was bad music but this is lookin to be good so far. Wind ensemble is gay, ive got one solo but we are playing extremely gay songs for some big band concert themed thing. Oh well, its entertainingly gay atleast. After wind ensemble, not much to look forward to really, pep band is starting to wind down...we are definitley going to a tournament this year...it all just depends on which team we go with since the men is doing really well..for them..and the womens is doing well also. But i think we'll be going to Alabama to the go karts and a mall....yay!?!? So thatll be exciting...kinda. Ive mainly been hanging out with my friend zach who lives beside me and my friend stephen. So there've been some good times...i think im spose to go cow tipping this friday night but im not sure yet. should be fun...lol.
Well i do believe i have the first person ever who hates me...after many attempts of just taking time out of my ever so busy day....yea right...to say hello, i have yet to get anything in return. It seems as though ive decided im through trying, which is ok with me. I know i tried and thats the best i can do. However sad the fact, it is what it is and that cant be helped. So i spose its good that ive come to realzie this, but just so they know, im always around...yes.
Ok so on a different note i think this one girl is psycho, my friend stephen and i hang out a lot and do a bunch of things together, and well theres this one girl who has gotten "extra" attached to being around us since we are apparently extremely funny together. Well im extremely scared cause i got a message saying that we are loved by her, and then she IMed me saying she didnt get her dave fix for the day...yea. Well theres more things that lead me to think she wants my ever so manly body cause i saw an away message on her computer talking about spending the night with HIM and being able to see HIM was so much fun. I hope this was talking about the basketball player she likes cause there was a pep band game that night, but if not, im scurred cause that HIM means me and i dont think im ready to get back into things yet...specially with her.
This crap live journal mess was created for one reason only. Seeing how i have lost the reason im prolly gonna not use this too much more often...maybe an update every couple months with how things are going...but till then...if you want me, you know where to find me. |
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| I feel as though what once was, is no more |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|12:55 am] |
| [ | m00d |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | musizzle |
| | Be Yourself-Audioslave | ] |
I dont think ive ever been so ready this break to move back into school as i have been now.
I cant wait to get back to playing the trombone daily...i cant wait to get back to playing poker till 3am...i cant wait to get back to an atmposphere where...nevermind
I dont feel well.
To end this, my favorite song as of right now
Someone falls to pieces
Sleeping all alone
Someone kills the pain
Spinning in the silence
To finally drift away
Someone gets excited
In a chapel yard
And catches a bouquet
Another lays a dozen
White roses on a grave
Yeahhh...
And to be yourself is all that you can do
Heyyyy...
To be yourself is all that you can do
Someone finds salvation in everyone
Another only pain
Someone tries to hide himself
Down inside his selfish brain
Someone swears his true love
Until the end of time
Another runs away
Separate or united
Healthy or insane
And to be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
Yeahhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
Heyyyy...
Be yourself is all that you can do
Even when you've paid enough
Been pulled apart or been held up
Every single memory of the good or bad
Faces of luck
Don't lose any sleep tonight
I'm sure everything will end up alright
You may win or lose
ยจ
But to be yourself is all that you can do
Yeahhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do
Ohhhh...
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
Heeey...
To be yourself is all that you can do(all that you can do)
To be yourself is all that you can--
Be yourself is all that you can--
Be yourself is all that you can do
-Audioslave |
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| Merry christmas! |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|11:54 pm] |
| [ | m00d |
| |  satisfied | ] |
| [ | musizzle |
| | Grave digger-Dave Matthews Band | ] |
What i got fo christmas:
-Tool box for my truck so i actually have storage space! yay!
-bug deflector so my windshield wont be so dirty riding around on back roads near campbell
-compass fo me truck, was a joke gift but i actually put it in cause i got lost on my way home from roanoke and my mom thought it was
funny....i did not...haha.
-Jump Drive...i lost my old one lol
-Short sleeve shirts and a few long sleeve ones
-Some kahky pants and pants
-Gift card to best buy...prolly gonna go towards a sound system if i ever figure out if they do installations...i dont have time to do it
myself these days...sux
-Star wars episode 3....i saw it for the first time today...sad
Yea, so santa was good to me i spose...im happy cause the one thing i really wanted was the tool box! had to take my bed rail covers off to put it on...which sucks cause i gotta buy myself some new skinnier ones...oh well!
I went joy riding with my tool box...cause i felt like it mainly, but i road around the auto park malls off 64 and got dirty looks by some people...prolly cause im just so beautiful and they cant stand it i spose.
Well besides this being my first sunday off since ive started cvs...no lie...its back to work everyday till saturday, where i spose im going to a new years eve party...prolly gonna be a bit wierd...oh well...ill deal. Then back to work that following sunday up untill i move back to school on friday night.
Im so ready to go back to school, had stuff to do everyday all day, my friends..as few as they are cause im learning to be myself once again...also entertained me a lot. I think i may have a private room so i can try and study more and pull my grades up. My friend zack, whose lived beside since last year, is prolly gettin a private room too so we are gonna try and motivate each other...hopefully.
But big things to look forward too back at school is the pops concert which is gonna be a jazz show...jazz=heavy brass, heavy brass=my awesomeness, my awesomeness=possible solo! OH JOY!...im gonna screw it up lol. Also i get to see the excitement on my band directors face as i walk into wind ensemble cause as far as hes concered, he thinks im probably not coming back for this semester cause i lost my scholarship...but imma give it one more and then prolly transfer out depending on how it goes. Yes.
Well basically i miss my freedom i had and the ability to do stuff to get my mind off things that apparently i put too much thought towards...oh well.
Oh and the 4,000 dollars missing from my account, whoever took it definitley went on a shopping spree in Richmond VA, but its all good cause i was able to prove i wasnt anywhere near richmond during those 3 days...its 90 some miles away...and they credited my money back and got new account numbers and debit cards and all that good stuff...so yay me.
So Merry christmas to all NONE people who read this...haha...and hope santy was good too you and you got all ya wanted! |
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| The money done raped me |
[Dec. 23rd, 2005|01:40 am] |
| [ | m00d |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | musizzle |
| | Avenge Sevenfold | ] |
Ok so first off, i get home tonight after driving 3 hours to find out that apparently i have a 4,000 dollar over draft charge on one of my bank accounts. I have no where near 4000 dollars much less 200 haha...sad. But hopefully this will get straightened out tomorrow. I think someone got my pin from the ATM i used in rocky mount.
So i left for Roanoke to see my friend who was home on leave from iraq on tuesday. I got there and met some people he knew from high school who didnt really talk much so i figured this is how it was gonna be for the whole time...well it wasnt.
So we go bowling right when i get there for a few hours, and i play pool with this kid who thinks im in the military with matt...haha. After that its back to his house where i met his brothers girlfriend and apparently this other girl he is "talking to" who happends to be the other sister of the girlfriend. So matts friend chris comes over and we all go to rocky mount...the first trip of many lol.
But i drove and this guy chris rode with me and we got along fine so i had no worries about getting along with anyone else. So it was good. Well apparently they all thought i was extremely funny, prolly cause we went to Western Sizzler in rocky mount and it was HORRIBLE. I ended up taking all the crackers in two trips and a knife from the table to get my 10 dollars worth. They all couldnt stop laughing and it was funny...lol.
So we played poker some and went to bed at 3 and woke up at 8am...omg...cause matt got a fone call and yea...i couldnt go back to sleep. So we went to hardeeees fo food and back to his house, then to walmart a few times, went and got this lil girl who was really cute and funny and then went shopping at walmart...again. Then our friend from campbell came up and she spent the day with us. We ended up going back to matts house play with all the RC cars he bought and mess. It was fun. Then we went back to rocky mount again to the mall, and got joy...girl from school...some gag gifts from this store called cynthias. I got her some "dick tarts" that were tic tacs, and matt got her a penis candle...lol...but he went and got her a real present from bath and body works too....but it was funny. We also made pictures in one of those booth things in the mall and they be funnny! there were some good ones in there lol.
Well joy left, we went to Ihop to eat where i broke the tooth pic dispenser. Well we went to go see the girl matts talkin too at her job in halifax. K so halifax is where the halifax resolves were written which led to the declaration of independence. So yea...theres historic halifax right down the road. Well matt drove around this building for a while trying to wait for this girl to come out so we could give her , her food. WEll they went inside and i stole his car and drove around the building some...well i realized i was driving and said lets go to historic halifax, so matts brother patrick and his girlfriend said ok!
We went to this old house that was kinda cool, it was da only house that was cool, then we went down this pitch black road to this sposedly abbandoned house...well...it was haunted or something. Cause we get down there and theres a light on, i start saying we are gonna get raped and mess and we peel out and speed away. Well we go back and get matt and then we go back to the house again to show him. This time the curtain was open along with the window and i think there was a someone in the window and i bout crapped my pants and we sped away really fast. So that gave time for matt to sleep while i drove and yea. it was special. Then we played poker that night and got the dog a lil messed up and it was really really funny lol.
Then we didnt do much today cept go to belks and goodys where i got this cooool sweater pull over thingy from belks that i really like. Then i left round 3, i was sad to go cause matt wanted me to stay the whole day and leave at night but i couldnt. But left at three, i ended up getting lost in knightdale and it was badddd. But i found my way and got home at 6. Twas a fun ride lol.
So it was a fun fun trip but my fone died while i was lost, so it wasnt fun for that short time lol.
One random thing i would like to add hurr, one thing i like that makes me happy...when people return phone calls...yes. |
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| You can't hold a man down without staying down with him |
[Dec. 18th, 2005|01:57 am] |
| [ | m00d |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | musizzle |
| | Neil Young-Rockin in the free world | ] |
I definitley almost died like 8 times tonight...in 10 minutes.
I get to stay at work till midnight this week, oh boy i cant wait.....someone come shoot me please...
I definitley just saw one of my friends light up an extremely long blunt in front of me, second time its happened to me in a year. And i definitley smelled like it later on...twas bad haha...oh well.
Going to Roanoke Rapids on tuesday to see my friend whose home for leave from Iraq. I cant wait, although when he left it was during better times...sucks. Either way itll get my mind off of things and i shall be happy, i think one of my friends from school might go up too and she'll get a hotel room...its gonna be good times fo sho.
Well imma watch a movie now so im gone |
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| behold a white horse; and he that sat upon him was called Faithful and True. |
[Dec. 9th, 2005|11:41 pm] |
Got jumped in Garner...sucks...leg hurts now...damnit.
The one thing that sucks about getting out before everyone else for winter break is the boredom. So this is definitley a bored update, thank god work starts tomorrow, cause i would go insane from being so bored if not. Im sure i wont think so later on but who knows.
Goin up to roanoke the 20th-22nd if my friend ever calls me to let me know hes in town. fun times im sure!
I seriously think i almost died like 8 billion times today, has not been fun at all, but i did go hang out with my friend in garner, just messin around town.
Umm besides this, working full time starting this weekend, two days off a week....oh joy....not...ha...I just love me some quality time with pure idiots.
I have cards and letters full of writing that werent meant for me yet i hang onto them still. Sometimes i wish i had mailed them because maybe things woulda been different. Oh well.
Beside the early issue mentioned ^^^^, things are fine and i feel better now that exams are over...yay me! |
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[Dec. 7th, 2005|10:42 am] |
| [ | m00d |
| |  blank | ] |
"And, behold, I come quickly;
and my reward is with me,
to give every man according as his work shall be.
I am Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End, the first and the last."
This may be a reocurring theme, but i wonder how it would be if certain people never knew me. Maybe itd be a lot more peaceful, who knows. All i know is i hate the way i feel cause its not me but i know i cant help it. I sometime wonder if anyone would care if i was just not around anymore, sad as it is feels like no one cares, or if you even care. Oh well, such is life. Im sure this'll end sooner or later.
But one thing i do know is im tired of trying
welllllllll looks like this is the end |
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